Hello My people, sorry about not blogging for awhile
I just haven't had the motivation to sit down and start writing
I've not even being scoping other people's blogs till yesterday
Ya gurl has been going through some serious emotional roller coaster
Too much *ish(excuse my french) has been going on..Got a girl all messed up in the head
Spring Break just passed and i still feel like im waiting for spring break
I need a vacation ASAP!!!!!
So what do i have to blog about? (thinking very hard)
I wasn't gonna blog about this cuz t makes no sense to me but after reading my girl Risquediva's blog, i decided to blog about it
So there is this boy that i've been talking to for a couple of months now
Ive known him for like 4 yrs now and were attracted to each other but at the time we were both in relationships so we just stayed friends
So towards the end of last year, we kinda got closer as per we were both out of relationships and we just connected.
We talked like 5-6 times a day for hours at a time and everything was just going great
When i was going through some serious shit last year, he was there for me everystep of the way
As in the boy would even pray with me over the phone..it was pretty much clear that we were gonna end up together and we woukd have but the distance was the problem
We lived in 2 different states and i decided to wait a while since i was moving to his state in a couple of months
Long distance relationship has never really been my thing cuz i guess i have trust issues when it comes to guys.
So everything was going great or so i thought till February 13th
We were on the phone as usual talking about the day's events and we got of the phone
The next day i dodnt hear from him or nothing and i was kinda upset as per it was Valentine's day but i had to keep reminding myself that he wasn't my man and i had no legit reason to be mad..but i just couldn't help it
The following day i decided to cal him but there was no answer
I called him everyday after that and there was still no answer so i started to get worried
I was thinking of all the things that could have possibly happened to him and i was kinda scared cuz this was the longest we had gone without speaking since we got real close
Then about two weeks later, he called me during my nite class and i called him back after i got outta class and there was tsill no response
So my anxiety became anger, cuz now i knew his dumbass was alive and okay but he was just not responding to my calls and i stopped calling
Then on his birthday after some persuasion from my best friend (who also shares his birthday) i decided to wish him a happy birthday even though i personally didnt care if he was having a good birthday or not and guess what? yup you guessed right, he still didnt pick up.
At this point i was like whatever...it was hard to keep him out of my thoughts but i was determined not to go crazy of one human being.
Next morning, Im in my room blasting my music and chilling before i went to work and then my phone starts ringing...Lo and behold it was him
i had to look at my phone twice to makse sure i was seeing right
Before this, i had imagined that if he ever called me again, he was getting straight up and down cursed out
But when he called me, i was just so calm and i wasn't necessarily interested in whatever he had to say..He kept apologizing and aplogizing but i guess i wasnt prepared to deal with him
i had began to slowly and gradually erase him from my system, hence my last 2 post about men
So i had to cut him off and tell him that i would call him later
He called me that nite but i didnt pick up cuz i was doing something important; so i sent him text.
A couple of days later, i called him and he told him he was gonna call me back in 2 minutes and explain to me why he had to get off the phone
That was 11 days ago and i just feel like punching his lights out
The boy has toyed with my emotions enough and i am just done with foolishness
I officially taken his nu,ber out of my phine so that i don't get any random urges to call him or text him
Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..these guys are just messing up nowadays
I think there is something in the water that they drink
My roommate too just pissed me the hell off but i will blog about that later..Sitting here and typing is not that much fum..I wish i could just talk and it would be typed up
I hope all u guys out there are having a better week than i am..Stay blessed
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Emotional Rollercoaster
Posted by Bookie19 at 6:59 PM
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That just sucks! The guy is a major fuck up. Why do some men behave like this??! I mean I'm not sure what it is. But lemme tell you honey...guys that take you on an emotional rollercoaster are a bad sign from the get go. So plz quit trying to think how you'll punch his light out and go on living life & meeting new people. I mean, he's just one guy. He probably freaked out on feb 14, then felt to proud/stupid to make it up to you when he missed the date. In either case, relax it doesn't really matter. Have yourself a lovely day.
Awwww my booboo...ma da lohun. What could his excuse be? Nonsense.
Girl, if we allow some of these guys, they'll run us mad, and im determined not to be an Aro patient cos of any bobo. The one meant for you, wont do yo-yo with your feelings, i tell you. Just ignore him, when he gets his acts together he'll explain himself. Me i dont like unreliable and inconsistent people, it just irritates me. Dont worry your sexy self over that jare, should i recommend yoruba movies? :D
Depends on how ur week is.
If he reli has sometn 2 say, he will call u.
Oya go and watch Iwalewa...the main actress is kinda errmm weird in her acting, but its a good storyline, and some scenes are too funny. The boat scene, please look out for it.
Everything good will come darling, dont stress yourself. Mwahhh
O dear, take it easy ok, don't get stressed over d dude. I'm glad u took his no off ur phone. He.s not worth ur time.
Is that y uve been away 4 a while? I missed u o n I'm glad ur back abeg.
obviously he is either going through some stuff or doesnt want u like that. It is up to u to find out what it is. Pray tell he is honest with u, and u can move on.
wow, i swear to God i understand how u feel n i can relate with d circumstance but what can i say, didnt want to blog about it but i thot y not pour ur mind out even if its about sumthin stupid...thnx gurl for checking up on me, i really really really appreciate it...much love
Awww, that can get very very annoying. Ive come close to that situation before, however mine was over fb.
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